It‘s cold when i woke up this morning
& this is my 1st try with my new alarm（dara’s sound with the song 《missing you》）at 9
dun feel much in case of i had forgotten to turn off my 6 am alarm zZ
so i woke up at 6 to turn the 1st alarm off thn i got back to sleep
2 hours ago( for me it's juz a sec ) , the 2nd alarm's on
i think it's not really good to set a alarm with what u like or love
it'd make it bad
I will try it again to ensure if it work that way
I hope it's not coz i would like to wake up with her sound
Has been a long time ago i din write such as blog things
for no reason or some reasons
let me count......almost half year?
no, no, not that long I think
lol~ juz a month & few weeks
now I know y my high school's teacher said that the times will fly in our college life
It seems like u got more in ur personal moment
but in fact, it take more from ur personal moment
Ur life linked more to ur study
many of work u have to do it need time, a lot of time
group discussion, research, group working, group work comparing
ya it's all about the group things
work with some else it's really hard
i m always failed to convince somebody to accept my opinions
so do the others
sometimes we juz giv up to contest
I'd say, ok, ok, u do it & we'll see
mostly moment, we will stuck at somewhere thn we juz silence
that the moment i hate most
coz it's really wasting time, my time
perhaps that's my communicated problem
but it's not really all about my English standard
so do Chinese
& that has no such things as line on ur schedule
after this is this
that has no such things like this
this this this this this
so u have to choose at all the time
to put it this, this, this, thn this
i m quit~!!!!
ok, it's a little bit out of my own topic
even though it's lot of things I feel hard in my college
it hav a lot of fun either
Can't be a man
man doesn't set a star‘s sound on his phone's notification
man dosen't set a star'd image as his phone & desktop wallpaper
man doesn't feel bored with the news
man doesn't feel sleepy with the books
man doesn't play games
man doesn't watch drama
man doesn't spend much on fb
man has a specific skill
man can stay away from seduction
I m tired, with all of this
i wan my childhood back
i wan my age back
I wan my white shirt & short blue pants back
i wan my wallet which inside would have RM2 a day back
i have no way to use it, i m happy juz becoz i hold it
i wanna happy with my attendance coz i 'd get a chop in my attendance card
although i hav no idea what could i get when it’s full of chops
i dunno about the love dunno about the frienship dunno about the money
i m juz happy when i watching TeenieWeenie
failed again, to be a man
no more to look forward
juz try to be a man, at least something more thn a boy
last weekends I hav been invited to join a party in Genting highlands
At start i m regret to said yes to join
but after that, it wasn't bad that i thought
it's fun & i got know more about games with the poker cards
we drink whole night at the apartment
ya start from 10pm untill 6am
it's really crazy
fortunately i can get sleep after that
it's really great to sleep with a cold weather
that's y i like winter
it's cold but u feel warm in ur bed
it's the most lovely moment for me
but i would prefer to go other place which is cold but not high
coz i m almost dying during in the car TT
& I finally walked it to the casino~~~!!
yeah! finally
I m not planning to go inside but them
so i can only follow the group
it's juz excited when i get in
but after couple minutes, excited was gone
take a walk inside & get to know more about it from my friends
I m not planning to play inside either but them
so i have no choice to play together x)
it's used to be my future life as i want
to be teacher on business
hav no much entertainment in my life
go to the casino every weeks for spending my time
try to get some stimulate from my boring life
ya, that's my best match version of my life in future with my life now
we can't have fun at our whole life
something boring that only make something interesting
i have no great base
i have no a car who parents' fetching on the start line
i have only parents behind me in the start line
from this background
90% of story will go with normal way
the special way only out from the movie or the less 10%
am I the 10%?
who knows
someone would say that juz work hard thn u can make it
i would said bullshit & shut ur mouth off
i m, juz a, normal, boy at all
i dream everything i wan juz becoz i can't create it by myself
i though it would be a new beginning at October
but it's juz mentioned me again that
i m N.O.R.M.A.L.
i m full of energy with negative now
hope that i can put it all here & move on
it's already aftrernoon but still cold
5 Dec 2013, 14:02 pm
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